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[Dec. 9th, 2004|11:21 am] |
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| | Emery | ] |
hmm... So yea im just here tyring to study for finals... but i just cant... i feel sick and sleepy... i just wanna go to bed and fall asleep... ahhh sleep how i miss it haha... damn school haha, but oh well... i guess that's all i have to say for right now cuz i need to get back to studying =/
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I try to hide those scars inside. Letting it build from my pride.
No one can see, what I see. Only the one watching over me.
You held me close, in times of pain.
I was kept from the cold, and sheltered from the rain.
You see me, I see you. You see through what's inside of me.
I've gone astray, so many times. It was then that you started to cry.
I want to know and feel you more. Deeper than ever before.
I'm feeling so weak and frail.
Please hold me in your arms, and carry me away.
You see me, I see you. You see through what's inside of me. |
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| Bored i guess.... |
[Dec. 7th, 2004|03:16 am] |
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| | Funeral For a Friend | ] |
I CDNUOLT BLVEIEE TAHT I CLUOD AULACLTY UESDNATNRD WAHT I WAS RDGNIEG THE PHAONMNEAL PWEOR OF THE HMUAN MNID AOCCDRNIG TO A RSCHEEARCH AT CMABRIGDE UINERVTISY, IT DEOSN'T MTTAER INWAHT OREDR THE LTTEERS IN A WROD ARE, THE OLNY IPRMOATNT TIHNG IS TAHT THE FRIST AND LSAT LTTEER BE IN THE RGHIT PCLAE. THE RSET CAN BE A TAOTL MSES AND YOU CAN SITLL RAED IT WOUTHIT A PORBELM. TIHS IS BCUSEAE THE HUAMN MNID DEOS NOT RAED ERVEY LTETER BY ISTLEF, BUT THE WROD AS A WLOHE. AMZANIG HUH? YAEH AND I AWLYAS THOUGHT SLPELING WAS IPMORANTT.
PRETTY COOL I MUST SAY! |
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[May. 22nd, 2004|01:28 am] |
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So yea... im here... bored... i just finished some lyrics.. haha they kind of suck, but im PROUD of them!! haha i still need a title though..so yea... i dont feel like writing anymore so ill go now....
Early morning, opened eyes.
I feel the sting of sunrise.
Walls of confusion closing in on me again.
A shadow standing at the door,
As empty words spill on the floor.
So many memories now left behind.
Now you breathe, i find it hard to swallow.
Your blank look tells me it,s over.
It,s screaming in my head, all that i,ve second guessed.
You wipe away the tears as i lay my fears to rest.
The day of dread comes crashing down on me.
I don't know why, and i don't know why.
It,s screaming in your head, all that you didn,t know.
Of what was left unsaid [and how i,m letting go].
A different day, a different light.
A simple world now filled with spite
I close my eyes so i can start to see.
A cloud covers all brightness, as anger turns to silence.
I plug my ears and wish it all away. |
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[May. 18th, 2004|03:37 pm] |
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So yea... it's been a while since ive written, so yea... ummm... well me and my gf Julie are still fighting... i think she's going to tell me that we need to "take a break" haha bull that's just another way to say lets break up. Oh well whatever happens happens.. dont get me wrong i mean i really do want to be with her and i dont wanna give up on her or anything, but it seems as if she really does want to break up and i just dont want to force her to stay with me, but damn i dont know what i did wrong.. i just hope she knows what she's doing and i hope she doesnt regret anything. Okay well ill stop talking about that.. well my band is going pretty good, now were working on new stuff and were actually trying haha.. were gonna have a show soon.. dont know when... dont know where... but aaron said that he can get us a show.. so yea that's awesome i cant wait to play in front of a crowd again =D. Alright well ill be going now cuz im babysitting my niece and nephew haha fun... |
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[May. 14th, 2004|01:37 am] |
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DUM DI DUM.... and that is all i have to say for today |
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| BLAH |
[May. 12th, 2004|11:00 pm] |
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| |  depressed | ] |
Alright well... this is my first REAL entry so yea im gonna try this whole LJ thing out haha... ummmm... well today sucked... i woke up like around 1pm, and went to work which really sucked cuz some lady was giving me crap about my hair, and told my manager and now he wants me to get a haircut :(. Forget that if he wants me to get a haircut then im quiting! Anyway after work i went to my gf's house and she started giving me crap saying that i dont have any time for her and im always with Cindy.. i dunno why she starts bringing that up.. she knows Cindy is my bestfriend.. how can she think there's something going on between us. It gets me sad seeing her like that.. seeing her so mad.. I feel like i let her down.. i feel like im not making her happy. But I thought she knew that there's noone else that can replace her, i love her a lot and i dont ever want to lose her :( she's the only thing that makes me happy, and i just dont want to lose that feeling. She just brings the best of me and when im with her.. haha i just cant describe that feeling.. it's too hard to explain. Mike tells me to just break up with her cuz she cant trust me and that's what a relationship is about.. trust... but i dunno.. i just cant... i cant live without her. But i know im just gonna end up getting hurt so why not end it now and just get it over with, haha it's funny cuz everything goes wrong in my life. At times I feel like im on top of the world, but then somehow i fall and shatter. Alright well i guess that's all i have to say.. this whole LJ thing isnt THAT bad.. it's alright.. it lets me let out some things that nobody would care about listening.. either way nobody takes me seriously.. im always this happy/joking around type of guy.. i dont show these types of feelings.. it's not me..so yea... here are some lyrics that i just wrote.. it's not my best work.. it's not even that good, but yea... i dont even know what i wrote and i dont feel like proof reading it.. so it probably doesnt make any sense, oh well...
in just one day's walk away from us
you so easily give up your trust
hopes are pushed into the sky
reason abandoned and left to die
fallable belief
childhood's end
one moment more and it's alright
cast in stone cold in the night
don't say a word or voice a prayer
there is no need for this despair
what will you do when this falls apart in your hands
what will you say when you see that you were wrong |
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[May. 12th, 2004|01:33 am] |
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OKAY WELL SHANNON IS MAKING FUN OF ME CUZ I HAVE A JOURNAL... SHE SAYS THAT MOST GUYZ DONT HAVE ONE.. WELL... UMM... YOU'RE JUST JEALOUS CUZ YOU DONT HAVE ONE HAHAH IM JK... BUT HEY HAVING A JOURNAL IS VERY MANLY!! |
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[May. 12th, 2004|01:21 am] |
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Hahah how awesome i got it now! so yea this is my first time.. using a journal... ive never had one before.. it's an interesting experience... |
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